MistrssBtch's Journal

2:28pm: extended frustration
*stupid LJ* ate My first attempt at this entry. lets try it again. *sigh*
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Today is December 9th, 2004.
The last time My pet was allowed to cum was Aug 4, 2004.
The next time he may possibly be allowed to cum is approx. March 15, 2005.

My pet was quite convinced that he would be allowed to cum while we were away on our cruise in Sept, as I had been building the level of frustration even before we went away.
the expected release didn't happen.

When we returned My pet remarked that he didn't think I would be able to keep him from cumming for an extended length of time.. say 6 months.. cause the loving girlfriend would surely allow him since there were special occasions coming up (our 5th anniversary, christmas, new years, his birthday and Valentines day... even going so far as to put a bet down on it.
Silly pet. hasn't he heard the expression "don't bet anything you aren't willing to lose"???

he's become more convinced now that he won't be seeing the joyous release until March.

Since our return from the cruise in sept, on any given day he has been made to wear bra and panties at My discretion. he has also had to submit to as many frustration sessions a I deem necessary in a day. Every night ends with a phone call, and the last thing done and said during these calls? a session with the vibrator.. where My pet is taken to the extreme edge of cumming, then told to put down the vibrator, say good night and hang up the phone. I then calmly roll over and go to sleep while My pet rolls around in frustration, wishing that he could cum. this happens EVERY night.. with only about three or four nights since sept that it has not, and will continue every night up to when he is once again allowed to cum... and possibly beyond. after all we do want to keep his interest and horniness at a high level now don't we?

11:35am: written while at sea
My pet has surprisd Me with a three day cruise... away from all that is familiar and putting himself totally into My hands for three days. It has been a trip with intense frustration for My pet, and not knowing what I am going to require him to wear at any given point. For example, last night was the formal dinner night, so under his suit My pet wore a spray of her perfume bra, panties, and nylons. How nice that the shirt was light enough to show the lace of the bra through it :-) today he is wearing bra and panties again.. and will be wearing the falsies later on today as we wander around the ship, as well as another light spritz of perfume.
My pet has also been devoting him/herself to making sure I have a very pleasurable trip. this is a very good thing...

12:11am: brief update.
Although I have been away from LJ for some time the training of My pet continues, mostly in the area's of frustration and not being allowed to cum.
Recently there has been a return to having him wear bra and panties on alternating days. this adds a certain amount of "spice" to the frustration sessions.
the last time My pet was allowed to cum was january 8th of this year. when will he be allowed to do so again??
not anytime in the near future. Perhaps I will work on breaking the record of last year at this time when he went 128 days or so without being allowed to cum.

this could be a good plan.

12:29am: An update
The weekend that I had planned with My pet last month didn't quite go off the way it was planned... due to illness on My part. There was plenty of hands on frustration, but the plans for the day out, salon visit etc were shelved.

However.... this month there is a plan in place for Me to take him/her out.. this time away from our primiary locations. There is an opporunity for us to be visiting Victoria on the weekend of Oct 25-- there will be business to be done on the 26th-- the actual reason for the trip. But we are going to take advantage of the time to have serena spend a little time out.
perhaps dinner out... maybe to a night club? we shall see.
there may also be some opportunities for demonstrations of the frustration that he has to go through on a reg basis...

12:51am: A return
Summer is now past, and so the continued ongoing training of My pet begins again.
This has already begun with a return to daily frustration sessions, and the wearing of both bra and panties on any given day, decided upon My whim.
In two weeks My pet will be spending the weekend in full female mode, complete with a trip to a salon to get makeup done, then out to dinner somewhere, with maybe some shopping along the way.
It shall prove to be an interesting weekend...

8:11pm: I am Lust... :-)

You are Lust.

Every part of you screams "Do me now!"
You exude sexuality and while others sometimes
view you as a slut, you see yourself as only
giving into your base desires.


What Emotion Are You?
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9:30am: Update
Had the opportunity to go and spend 2 days with My pet recently at his place of residence. Day 1 was a beautiful sunny spring day... so we went down by the beach, sitting in the car,windows open and watching the people go by. Unseen to passers by was the fact that I was taking the opportunity to frustrate My already very horny pet... while making him watch passing females. Females that were jogging past, breasts bouncing. Females that were walking by in skimpy tops and skirts. All the while frustrating him and pointing out that he was sitting there with his cock exposed and hard and that he could LOOK but not touch all that female flesh and didn't he just wish that he could touch just one?
I kept My pet there at the beach for a while until he was practically panting to cum.
we then went back to his home, and laid down for a "rest". My pet was, of course, frustrated by Me before being allowed to nap. he had a restless sleep... :-).
After the "rest" we had dinner, and I decided that after dinner we would go to a movie. What we saw was unimportant. What is important is that the movie theater only had 4 patrons, Me & My pet and two others. My pet and I sat up in the balcony and the other two women sat in the lower part of the theater. From the time we sat down I had My pets cock out... and the frustration began. All the way through the previews.... through out the movie... I frustrated My pet. Repeatedly he was brought to the edge of cumming.... only to have the frustration stop so that he could calm down a little. Then it would begin agian. I told My pet that I was tempted to make him stand up and cum over the edge of the balcony. This made My pet groan... the desire to cum warred with the humiliation of being made to cum in public... of course I had no intention of letting him cum at that time. The idea was just planted in his head to add to the frustration.
For the entire time we were in the movie I continued to frustrate him... and just before the end of the movie he got thisclose to cumming... but I stopped... there was a very small amount of cum leakage. Just a few drops really... dripping off the end of his cock and onto the balcony floor. Now each time My pet drives by that theater he will recall that that is the theater where he almost came and that there is still a trace of him within its walls.


There is more to the visit...
Stay tuned for the rest of day 1 and about day 2...

6:24pm: total days update
today makes 114 days since My pet has been allowed to cum.

11:31pm: The length of frustration time so far..
Thought I should post just how long it has been since My pet has been allowed to cum for those of you who might be curious. The last time he was allowed to cum was New Year's Eve... 110 days ago. This is already a quarter of a year. Should I decide to make it last until the end of June it will be 6 months since he had last cum... approx 180 days. This sounds like a nice round number... :->

10:47pm: I have returned..
After some time away from this journal due to other daily commitments I have returned. My pet was out to spend some time with Me in My domain last week. It was the visit where he was quite sure that he was going to be allowed to cum. he WAS NOT ALLOWED TO DO SO. I have decided that his current plan of frustration training is to continued.. for an as yet undecided length of time. Have had a thought that maybe the end of june would be a good time.. but only if My pet has demonstrated that he has earned the right to do so. (This is still not a fully decided plan at this time... any comments? thoughts?)

While My pet was here, hoping that he would be able to cum, he was made to under go multiple frustration sessions, as well as a few other things for My amusement.
One of the highlights of the visit was the shopping trip. My pet was made to go into a female clothing store while wearing the bra and falsies, on a saturday afternoon, without being able to wear his jacket.. which he has often used to partial shield the falsies when he has had to wear them before. he was sent in to look to see if he could find another pair of the satiny tap pants like the ones I referred to in My last entry here. There were none in the local store here in town. So I told My pet that he would have to go and check the same chain in the area where he lives BUT there would be a small change in the outfit that he would be wearing. This last friday he went on that shopping trip... going into the store on his own, wearing bra, panties, nylons, and falsies. once again he was not allowed to wear the jacket. before he left the house to go to the store he had to do a sesssion with the vibrator.. to get him into that special horny and frustrated frame of mind. then when he got back... he had to do another session.
My pet is in such a constant state of frustration and horniness that a session with the vibrator doesn;t even last two minutes before he has to turn it off to prevent him cumming or having any kind of accidental leakage. It has become part of the daily routine that My pet must do a session when he wakes in the morning and one at the end of the night before going to sleep. that one is usually done under My supervision (by telephone) and is pushed right to the VERY EDGE of cumming... then is told to put the vibrator down and go to sleep. This usually leaves him to moan and groan for a few hours before he is able to go to sleep. This is not My problem.
Through out the day My pet must continue to check email for any new directives for the day.. which often include the directive of going and doing a session upon reading the email, or to do them are certain spaced intervals, say every 3 or 4 hours.
Another change in the recent weeks is that My pet now knows that he must wear the bra and panties everyday unless directed to do other wise.
I also took some more pictures of My pet while he was here, restrained in My bed, to have to review at My leisure when My pet is not here for Me to play with in person. Have also had the thought that it would be very entertaining to mail one of those pic's to My pet when he leasts expects it... to remind him of My power over him, even when I am not physically with him.

What is the near future going to hold? I will be going to My pets living quarters early next week. Plans have not yet been fully set for what I will do to/with him during that time... but have a few ideas. I will be taking My camera, and there will be at least one other shopping trip...

More details will follow at a later time...

11:44pm: Ahhh the joys of polaroid film!
Was recently out to visit My pet at his living quarters. It is often much more Effective to restrain him in his own bed.. leaves a lasting impression... sometimes more that when he is within My domain. There is the added benifit of My having him place hooks in the walls and in the ceiling for Me to be able to tie rope etc to, to restrain him there in his own bed. I took advantage of these items while I was there this time. his hands were cuffed to the wall and then there was rope tied around his cock...to help make him nice and hard. there was then rope tied to the hooks at the head of the bed looping down around his balls and pulled TIGHT. Rope was also tied around each ankle so that he was not able to squirm to relieve any of the pressure being put on his cock.
I then put clothes pin clamps on his nipples and topped everything off with a blindfold. Once all this was in place I spent some time frustrating him until he was nice and hard and moaning. When he was in the proper state of frustration I picked up the polaroid camera and took a few pictures... one a nice close up of the tied up cock.. and another full body shot showing exactly how he was tied up. I am looking forward to using the camera to document various stages of training... as well as having My pet show Me how to use the lovely digital camera he has recently aquired.
During this visit My pet was also made to go out in public not only wearing the usual bra and panties beneath his clothing but also wearing falsies... making him appear to have visable female breasts. I then took him to a female clothing store... where he was made to walk around while we walked around looking at things that might fit him. I found him a lovely pair of silky tap pants with a nice lacey edge to them.. there had been dicussion of maybe getting him a slip but I feel that these will be much more effective...as he can wear them under regular clothes... including shorts.. which he likes to wear often in his daily life.
I also have had My pet shave his legs and around the pubic area.. making everything nice and smooth. It makes it soo much easier to tie rope there... and makes him realize that I have ultimate control over all parts of his body...even if I am not with him on a daily basis.

The next planned visit with My pet is to be later next week. At that time he will be here within My domain for 4 days and nights. Good use is going to be made of that time let Me assure you.

11:55pm: More Icons!
Found another great source of icons... iconsensual which is where I found this lovely one of the male in chains... and one of handcuffs... which will be seen at some other time.
I am still looking for that lovely icon with the whip on it that I saw while I was browsing LJ at work today... I am sure I will find it sooner or later.

Now a quick update on My pet and the training.
he was here within My domain recently. Had him effectively tied to the bed....and proceeded to frustrate him using a combination of hand and vibrator. How he did twitch and moan. It continues to be a daily requirement that he wear the bra and panties. I sent him to buy nylons a few days back... while wearing the bra and panties... and after doing a 2 minute frustration session. Then yesterday I sent him an email from work and instructed him to wear not only the bra and panties but the nylons as well. he was made to wear them all day and to do frustration sessions every 4 hours as well. This has left him in an even more hightened state of submission, frustration and horniness.

This is a good thing.

11:33pm: My icon...
came from a wonderful journal of icons that I found. Check out iconhell to see the great icons she has made!!


More on recent events with My pet at a later time...

1:50pm: ongoing..
My pet will be here within My domain tomorrow night. he is currently in a hightened horny and frustrated state.. and he will be more so by the time he goes home on Sunday morning.
I have added to his mental frustration by reminding him of the chain that I have on My bed and have not used in some time, and by continuing the frustration sessions on a regular basis.. with sessions getting done while I am on the phone with him... or by being told to go and do a session while we are talking by IM.... or sending him an email from work and telling him to do a X number of minutes session. All this combined with him having to wear at least a bra (if not both bra and panties) each day continues to add to things.
The orgininal plan with the frustration/ he can't cum until sometime in april maybe undergoing a slight change... something that could make it continue for an indefinate length of time. Made mention of this to My pet last night... a parting comment at the end of the nightly phone call.. that had him panting and moaning.... so close to cumming he could almost taste it. It is of course at that point that the session ended.... and so did the call... with My parting comment being words to the effect " it maybe longer before you get to cum than you realize"
( Note to My pet )

My pet told Me this morning that, as I knew it would, that comment played through his head for the rest of the night.

12:07am: update...
The training is ongoing. My pet must continue to wear a bra and panties in his day to day life.... when directed to do so. In fact he owns 3 different ones... and at times has had to wear them 24 hours a day.
My pet was recently within My domain... and spent most of his time here bound. he was kept tied for the daylight hours when other members of the household were away from the house. he was there to service Me throughout the day...he was only untied when it was close to being time for others of the household to be home. Later that night he was even made to sleep that way...tied up... rope tied around hands and arms... rope around the cock and balls... and another one wound down around the balls and then brought back up to be tied to the ropes around the arms and hands. Thus any movement from that area pulled the rope around the balls. he was also made to sleep with a bra one and a pair of panties. The rope around the cock and balls also tied the panties into place. All this kept him very horny. he is still not allowed to cum... and even when there is an accidental bit of leakage it doesn't take long for things to rebuild to the ongoing levels of frustration. There are approx 39 days left of this plan of ongoing frustration..... unless I decide to expand it that is....

9:52pm: Current training continued
I continued to frustrate My pet for about 3 hours.... using a variation of methods. My hand, by riding him like the dildo he resembled... frequently pulling on the nipple clamps while at the same time frustrating him.
To add a little variety to the mix at one point I used some rope, tied it around the nipple clamps and then tied it to his cock. Now each time there was a tug on the rope he felt it in more ways than one! My pet was kept on the very fine edge of cumming for about 3 hours... soooo close to doing so... and yet never making over that line. How he moaned and twitched...
Finally after about 4 hours of this kind of treatment, I decided it was time for Me to get some sleep. I also allowed My pet to sleep at the same time.
Once the morning came (unlike My pet lol) the training continued. My pet woke up... still nice and hard and even more horny then when he went to sleep. I started off the morning with a little manual frustration to get things perculating. I then moved on to applying some rope... first to the cock... to help keep it HARD HARD HARD. then tied his hands, winding the rope down and around the balls... forming a kind of parachute. this kept the balls pulled nice and tight. I then put his chain choke collar on him and tied the rope through that as well, Thus ensuring that he was not able to reach down to relieve any of the pressure caused by any of the ropes. the final touches were putting the nipple clamps back into place and putting a blindfold on him. Frustration then continued. I also made sure that I made good use of My little dildo, rubbing in the fact that I can cum any time I want to. When I tired of this I left the room... leaving him there all tied up and awaiting My pleasure. Over the next three hours or so he never knew just when I would come in... get him hard again (didn't take very long :-> ) and riding him til I came. Then I would leave the room again and go about other things in the house. As mentioned this went on for about 3 hours....
he was finally allowed to get up when it came to be time for him to head back to his home.
he went out of here an even more horny little pet than when he had come in.

1:46pm: Current training
At this time My little pet is going through an extended sexual frustration training program. this began 38 days ago on january 9. since that time he has been made to use a vibrator on himself each day that he is not with Me. he uses it under my direction each evening before bed to get him sexually stimulated... but the rule is THAT HE IS NOT ALLOWED TO CUM. (the last time he was allowed to cum was new years eve) When he is with Me... I do the frustrating personally,using a more "hands on approach". This is especially effective as I can keep things going longer just by varing the pressure I use.
This weekend My pet was here to spend some time with Me. I used some of My rope to tie his hands, put a blindfold on him,put a gag on him. Then I took rope and tied it around his cock and balls. Gave him a pretty little blue pill to make sure he would stay nice and hard for a REALLY LONG TIME. while waiting for that to take affect.... put clothespin clamps on his nipples.... did I mention that he was already SUPER horny??
oh yes he was...and it was about to get kicked up a notch...or ten!
I then began to do a little manual frustration... to get things primed and ready for Me. When he was good and hard...twitching and moaning.... I kneeled between his outspread legs and started to rub the cock against My clit, every once in a while letting it slid down far enough to just slip inside Me a little. This is a very good way to torture My pet... he ends up feeling like just a dildo. this is not a bad thing.... he is after all there for My pleasure as well as the training.
By now he is rock hard, so I next move to sitting on his cock. This is almost enough to push him over the edge... as it has been a long time since he was inside Me and I am nice and tight at the time. My new position also allowed me to reach up and play with the clothespin clamps on his nipples. My pet Moans....and as I begin to slid up and down on the rock hard cock he knows that the night has just begun, and that there is no chance of his cumming... no matter what happens.

To be continued....

1:38pm: The Beginning...
Of the journal for My pet/slave/feminized male to read. This shall be the place that I will post things that have been done to him/her. this is the place that he/she can come to to see what is expected of them in the way of dress or daily expectations of duties.
This will also be a place to keep the record of things that have been tried... what worked... what worked REALLY well and what didn't quite work the way I had planned.
Please feel free to post comments/suggestions on the things you see here.